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I also collect plastic packaging and bits of shrink wrap that encase chiclets of gum and batteries for instance, as well as almost everything that can be bought or sold. By the 90‘s ever more things were ever more thingified, shrink wrapped and fetishized, observable through a clear, smooth transparent layer, set into individualized compartments and set apart as events no longer a part of, but separate in their perfect defenses. When you got them home, you could peel off that unfleshy skin releasing them into the world, permeable and available to be permeated, handled and lived-in, on and through, prepositionally in the life world beyond plastic.
I exaggerate, but only a bit. Because thirty years has not made a mark on the poor mouse, I wonder if all the encasing, individualizing, and preserving of ultimately disposable items, also contains for us ‘Westerners’ the rather sick idea of a containable, and signature ego, over-developed in order to function independent of and from inter-relations with the world and the other possible collaborators that might bind us to it? Is the mouse thus become a cryogenic ecological nightmare? A horrific existing beyond the mutability of everything else? 
I feel sorry for it. The making of it into an object underlined for me my own mortality. Yet, object-ified- I now wonder at the Cartesian implications of the thing-in-itself held back from the world, organized to observe perfectly its lack of relationship. No longer bound by the collective might our loneliness become complete?
What were the ecological systems I was embedded in during art school in the 80′s? Did it matter that the expressed cultivation and exaggeration of the signature individual artistic ego was actively promoted? Or even that I just felt it was? As a young woman, I had to inhabit the coffin of an art world where the male ego seemed central to it; the rest of the art world vampires fed off of it. “You can not be female, have children, and be an artist”; “Take your iron and go home”- these were some of the comments in the art department to female students at that time. So as far as my female student self knew, there was no other way. In order to ‘suceed’, develop a male ego. That was how the art-world ecology sustained itself.
Can I have become eco-oriented in my work due to the dissolution of artificial residues in my own body? Might Cartesian ‘objectivity’ be another artificial residue? In taking off the plastic packaging and becoming permeable, have merely newer deleriums taken me over at the cost of lost ‘objectivity’? How much ego do you need in order to survive in a left-brain world?
Born into a certain point of ‘history’ and art history (actually it was The End of History and the Last Man – Fukayama was treated like he was omniscient, while Harold Bloom went to the defense of the Western ‘canon’), born in a certain geographical place, under particular circumstances and life histories, we carry the stories of that time, those places, and those particulars inside our bodies and through our lives. As artists, these particulars function as the ground and background that we draw from for our work. We may not even be conscious of them. But we inhabit them and they inhabit(us).

So may be this is why at present, my bitter distaste for this chunk of plastic containing the fragile remains of a tiny mouse registers as physical revulsion to both the material and the ‘subject’ I created by the severing of it from all its relations, histories and stories. I distanced my self in the blockages contained in the block of plastic resin. The mouse is permanently cut off, “unable to return to the gods that made it“.